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This weekend I am speaking at the Pine Cove/Crier Creek Mother Daughter Weekend.  Savannah is going with me and I can’t wait to spend some one on one time with her.  I have only been to Crier Creek in the summer so getting to go right smack in the middle of the year is going to be a real treat!

Here is the thing though … I can speak all day long (or all weekend long in this case) to moms … but I don’t have much experience in speaking to the 12 and under crowd.  I’m a little nervous and praying, like always, that God will fill in what I am not.

Since I will be spending much of today preparing, I thought I’d offer you a “guest post” of sorts.  I had mentioned in a Sunday School lesson a few weeks ago that one of my favorite blogs is called “Stuff Christians Like” and it is a satire that I think is hilarious.  I gave some examples of my favorites like “Wondering if you could get out of the way if a stereo speaker fell from the ceiling at church”. I kid you not … in our new sanctuary I think about this all the time.  Those speakers are suspended by what looks like a string and I’m convinced it’s only a matter of time until one falls.  I tell Bill I won’t sit in the center section so I won’t have to worry about it.  He just rolls his eyes and says that where I sit has nothing to do with the speakers and everything to do with the fact that we sit in the back because we are ALWAYS late (three cheers that it will be 30 minutes later come January!!!!).

Another good one was “Christian-fying up your house if the pastor comes over".  That’s just funny.

Anyway … the writer of the blog is Jon Acuff and he now works for Dave Ramsey.  He has a book by the same name as his blog.  It’s on my list of books to read.

Every now and then though he writes something markedly “unfunny” but very profound.  I thought today’s post was just that.  Perhaps you know exactly what he means by “the soft x”.

This is a link to his blog, but I’m also pasting it here … in case you aren’t prone to clicking over to read things.

I think this is really, really good.

And after you read it if you’ll throw up a prayer that I can hold the attention of a room full of 6-12 year olds, I’d appreciate it.  :)

The soft X. #

I cried in the Chicago Airport.

And these were not tough guy, lumberjack, I just punched a mountain lion in the face with my bare fist kind of tears. These were sad and tired and give up tears.

I was flying home from a conference in Chicago. I had been the closing keynote speaker and it had gone really well. That’s not what I was crying about though. I was crying because of what I knew would happen when I landed.

I knew I would take the train to my car, grab work clothes, change in the handicapped stall and then disappear into a sea of cubicles. I didn’t hate my job, not at all, it just wasn’t what I felt called to do. The Stuff Christians Book wasn’t out yet, but the site was doing well. I had this completely different life starting to develop and it was hard to go back to work and act like Chicago had all been just a dream.

This was long before the opportunity at Dave Ramsey. This was a doldrums period where I was just writing and writing and writing, but things weren’t happening the way I thought they would.

I sat in meetings about TPS reports and budgets and would get frustrated with God, wondering if he even saw me. Wasn’t he the one who put this burning in my heart? Wasn’t it his call that I was answering? This wasn’t how life was supposed to go.

Have you ever felt that way?

Has there ever been a situation where you had an expectation that you felt like God simply wasn’t meeting? I think most of us have experienced that.

Right now, someone reading this blog is mourning a marriage that fell apart. You wanted to be the first in your family to have a grandkid for your parents, not the first to get divorced.

Right now, someone is in a gray cubicle and the degree they got, the passion they followed in college is a million miles away from how they spend 40+ hours every week.

Right now, there’s someone struggling with an issue that refuses to release it’s talons even though you’re occasionally able to shake it for a few “good weeks.”

Right now, someone had to send out wedding cancellation notes, because it’s off.

Right now, there’s a man who feels a lot less than a man because he doesn’t have a job and can’t provide for his family.

Right now there are a million different versions of “Don’t you see me God?” happening. And so we doubt and get angry and lonely. But we are not the only ones with expectations that go astray.

In Genesis 48, the same thing happens to Joseph, of the double rainbow coat fame. He has brought his two sons to his father Israel for his blessing. We don’t understand this culturally because we don’t really do this anymore, but this was a critical, massive thing that was about to take place. Manasseh was about to receive Israel’s blessing. That was what should happen. That was what Joseph expected.

Joseph the faithful. Joseph the former slave, former convict, former saved all of Egypt from death and destruction. Joseph had a great track record at this point. He was a deeply wise man of God. He knew what was about to happen. By lineage, by tradition, by faith, Manasseh was about to get blessed by Israel.

Only he doesn’t.

It doesn’t happen that way. Instead of doing what he should have done, Israel crosses his arms and forms an X, placing his hands on the heads of the wrong children. He blesses Ephraim, the wrong son in Joseph’s mind.

And in 48:17 we see what happens: When Joseph saw his father placing his right hand on Ephraim’s head he was displeased; so he took hold of his father’s hand to move it from Ephraim’s head to Manasseh’s head.

Joseph has lived his entire life with one belief about how a blessing is passed down. This is his, “I got my Master’s Degree in teaching, I should get a teaching job” moment. This is his, “People get married after college, that’s what they do,” moment. This is what he’s always been ready for and it goes the exact opposite way.

So Joseph, like me or you trying to fix a mistake, says, “No, my father, this one is the firstborn; put your right hand on his head.”

And how does Israel respond? Does he say, “Oh, I am failing of sight and made a mistake?” Does he reply, “Thank you for correcting this situation?”


He says simply, “I know, my son, I know.”

And that is an incredibly tender thing to say as someone’s expectations crumble.

And I think it’s something God still says to us, even today.

“I know, my son, I know. I know, my daughter, I know. That thing you wanted is not going to happen. Not the way you’ve always dreamed. I know this hurts. I know this stings. I know you feel like I am distant or not aware of where you are and who hurt you and what you think life was supposed to be like. I know in moments like this you doubt that I can count the hairs on your head or have your best in mind. But please, I am not done. I have barely started to reveal your life to you. I am the God who satisfies your desires with good things. That is me! And when it comes to your hopes and your fears and your dreams, I know, my son, I know.”

I think of this moment as the “soft x.”

I think of the tenderness of Israel with his arms outstretched and crossed. I think of our desires and our dreams and the times they don’t work. And above all, I think of a God who wants to tell you he hears you, he loves, he knows you. He is not disconnected or disinterested in who you are and who you want to be. Today, he says,

“I know, my son, I know.”

Comments: #

The Gist Fam - Dec 3, 2010

Oh Darla - thank you for posting this today. It’s just what I needed to hear/read. Hope this weekend goes well!

Ashley - Dec 4, 2010

You are going to do GREAT speaking to all of the “youngins”! Oh… and you can totally use semi-sweet instead of milk. I just really prefer the creamier taste of the milk chocolate.

Julie - Dec 4, 2010

Thank you, Darla. Soft x. Love you. - Dec 6, 2010

How FUN! I hope the weekend is wonderful!

Amy - Dec 0, 2010

Well, from where I sit, you did a fabulous job in ministering to the moms AND the daughters. I’m sorry we had to miss this morning’s session, but my sister and I were truly blessed by the time we spent with you. My sister has been “unchurched” for some time and I think this weekend helped to soften her heart. Pray that the Holy Spirit will continue to work in her life and that I GET TO be a part of the Lord’s plan for her.

Robbin - Dec 1, 2010

That was a very powerful post. I’ve loved the Stuff Christians Like list and Jon Acuff - he’s seriously hilarious. But his to-the-point blogs are always right on too and this one is a prime example. Wow - what a way to touch to the core. It touched me. Thanks for posting.

Kimmy - Dec 1, 2010

I was there… (o: Thank you for speaking to us this weekend. My daughter and I had such a wonderful time. And it was especially a treat to sit and have a meal with you and hear about your life. I appreciate your genuine love for others and kind disposition. You radiate the LORD. Thank you for sharing you with us! ~ kim macchio from Keller!